When I’ve got things on my mind, serious things, I cannot abide being sat around “brewing about them” (stewing on them to you and me)
I’ve got to keep busy, it’s essential.
It doesn’t take my mind off things, obviously and it doesn’t detract or stop me from worrying my bonce about them, but it does one thing that works… it helps me get perspective, it helps me sleep.
Today was one such day.
Car washed, polished and trims and wheels all cleaned up, all the winter road salt spray is not good when it’s dried on, (salt damages paintwork – hence why you should never wash your car with washing up liquid!)
Other part of garden is starting to take shape, remaining seeds planted (lettuces in case you were wondering), didn’t eat all day, so when tea came, it was scoffed at record pace.
I hate having worries, it is one of the worst feelings ever.
The human form is programmed to be able to tell when something is not right.
This results in stress.
I worry alot!
I worry about family, I worry about what’s coming up at work, I worry I won’t have enough time to do things and I worry about things that almost always, end up nothing like I was worrying would arise/happen.
Once a worry is in the swede, I cannot help it, I just stress, to the point where appetite’s lost, little to no sleep, disinterested about everything, lethargic, no energy (can’t be bothered with anything) but the worst is that I can sit staring at a screen for an hour, not having a clue what I’ve been watching/listening to, for the entire time.
Nothing sinks in.
Is there a way to relieve the stress?
If there is, I cannot find it, don’t know what to do about it.
I am envious of those that have little to no stress, those that just don’t give a shit.
No inward hassles for them, though they probably do have hassles, they rarely show them.
If you could bottle stress, there’d be no wars, no conflicts, just peace, inner peace.
Oh how I long for inner peace.
Maybe I should start meditating?
Maybe start drinking the stress away?
Stress free is high up on my priorities.
Until I find an answer (I don’t believe I ever will) to worrying/stress, I’ll just keep on doing what I’ve always done, keeping busy!